Never Stays the Same

Okay, I know I haven't posted a blog in such a long time but today I decided that would change.
Today at school in my so called "Honors" English class, (more like Drama 101) I was talking to my friend and we eventually started taking about all the people we used to be friends with, 7th grade, 8th grade, and basically our Jr. High life, our old crushes(mostly mine:D), and just having that simple fifteen minute conversation I remembered how much I and everyone one around me has changed. Whether we grew as an indiviual or sunk into the crowd with all the "popular" guys and girls. But before I move on I would like to encourage all of you who may be reading this to listen to Taylor Swift's new CD. But the first song that really I see my life in is the song called "Fifteen". Its a great song that has really opened my eyes up about high school and Jr. High when I didn't have much of a self-esteem.

Lyrics:
You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
Its the morning of your very first dayyou say hi to your friends you aint seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybodys way
its your freshman year and youre gonna be herefor the next four years in this town
hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say you know I havent seen you around, before
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
you're gonna believe them
and when youre fifteen
feeling like there nothing to figure outwell count to ten,
take it inthis is life before who youre gonna be fifteen
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
and soon enough youre best friends laughing at the other girls who think theyre so cool
well be out of here as soon as we can
and then youre on your very first date
and hes got a carand youre feeling like flying
and youre momas waiting up and you think hes the one
and youre dancing round your room when the night end
when the night ends
Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tell you they love you youre gonna believe them
when youre fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin round
but in your life youll do greater than dating the boy on the football team
but I didnt know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him somedaybut I realized some bigger dreams of mine
and Abigail gave everything she had to a boy who changed his mind
and we both cried
Cause when youre fifteen and somebody tells you they love you youre gonna believe them
and when youre fifteen, dont forget to look before you fall
Ive found that time can heal most anything
and you just might find who youre supposed to be
I didnt know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
La la la la la .. la la la la la .
La la la la la
You're very first day take a deep breath girl
take a deep breath as you walk through those doors.

So now... right my conversation my dearest friend. In seventh grade I had a crush and that lasted on and off all through Jr. High. I pretty sure he knows since one of my friends told him but yet again he's pretty smart so any ways I don't care anymore because like the song said I do better than that. Even though he still a great guy. Advice to all you girls and boys: If they don't notice you about after a month get over it. Kind of harsh(yes I know...) but it will leave you alot more free time to worry about things that can actually affect your life.

Right and then there are those people who used to be your friends and now you don't even say "Hey" nor "Hi" to each other or even notice their presence. And if you do say Hi there's an akward feeling and some slight tension may occur. But its sad to see how some of your so called "friends" had a different set of mind when becoming mega sport stars, drama queens, cheerleaders, and sometimes just decided to even change the fact that they didn't think you were cool enough for them. I know this sounds really random coming from someone like me but anyways just be nice to everyone around you since you don't really ever know who your friends will end up being.